To Fall
By: Alyssa Granger
I met my demise
with fear in my eyes
my sword loosend in my hand
so I sucked it up
and relied on luck
To play forth on fates demand
the dance was quick
and so I slipped
To fall down in Deaths Embrace
The fall was long
my fear was gone
I fell short of winning that race
Magic Man
By: Alyssa Granger
magic man oh play that tune
I've come to ask an expected boon
pound me out that rockin beat
crank the smoke that smells so sweet
the voice, the bass, the guitar, and drums
crank that shit and make me strum
throbbing out the musics key
Oh magic man you set me free
the sex the drugs the rock and roll
I'll let out down the rabbit hole
yeah magic man you played that tune
and now I own you an expected boon
Wake Me Up
By: Alyssa Granger
Wake me up
Please dear Lady
Release me from
Sleeping malady
I can not stand
This aggravated dream
Here in this place
My anger reins supreme
Despair is my companion
Madness has my mind
Give back my hope
I don't have much time
Hatred is my brother
Fury is my friend
Goddess take me from this place
Before I meet my end
Love Smells Like
By: Alyssa Granger
Love smells like the musk of sweat,
it is raw,
it is human,
you find it with in your self.
Love smells like honey,
it is sweet,
it is sticky,
you can find it anywhere unnoticed.
Love smells like vinegar,
it is sharp, it is stinging,
you find it in the ones freshly burned.
Love smell like home,
it is warm,
it is safe,
you find it with a child in a true parents arms.
Love smells like darkness,
it is muffled,
it is subtle,
you can find it in the one to afraid to approach.
Love smell like insanity,
it is out of control,
it is all encompassing,
you can find it in the e
My Fortieth Year
By: Alyssa Granger
The fortieth year of my life
Bright as day
Sweet as sugar
Soothing as the midnight hollow
An Independent woman
A strong woman
I expected to be
Smarter than this
More thin
Wiser in the ways of life
Less wary
I expected better than this
I’ll be forty-one soon
My mother was once forty-one
My mother is happy at sixty-eight
She has seen her children grow
Like the blessed Elder trees
My brothers are spreading their branches
Trying to touch the ever-rising sky
Their children, my children
Our little seedlings
Which we shed in joy
Only to feel only sorrow
When they truly grow
To Fall
By: Alyssa Granger
I met my demise
with fear in my eyes
my sword loosend in my hand
so I sucked it up
and relied on luck
To play forth on fates demand
the dance was quick
and so I slipped
To fall down in Deaths Embrace
The fall was long
my fear was gone
I fell short of winning that race
HERO
The dawn now sinks fast
As I run from my past
The past that haunts me
The past that taunts me
The past that gave me this task ahead
When all I want to do is hide in bed
I never wanted to be a hero
But I can't stand to be a zero
Now the world rest on me
For the now future remains to be seen
After that who knows what will be
All I know is that I will never be… me.
A thousand years have gone by
A thousand live have to die
A thousand tears have been shed
A thousand drops of blood have bled
A thousand wishes have been wished
A thousand kisses have been kissed
A thousand minds have gone insane
A thousand people deal with pain
A thousand animals fall today
A thousand birds fly away
A thousand people fall by the way side
A thousand others run and hide
A thousand people surround you
A thousand people ignore what you do
They don't want to know
They don't want to see
How you rip and tear at me
You cut me down
You rip me apart
Then turn around and rip out my heart
But you wont let m
*****************Words********************
I made the cut you made the burn
And yet you're with me at every turn
You shear my skin with every glide
I run from you at every tide
You spill my blood
You never pay
You live to see another day
You take my heart
And tear it apart
And yet never outwardly leave you mark
"Do you know what you to me?"
"Why can't see what you do to me?"
As I start to fall apart
You look at me with a start
"What happened to you?" you will ask
You don't even realize you own complete task
Why don't you know?
Why don't you see?
That you have destroyed everything that is me
Daddy
Dear Daddy,
Daddy why are you never here unless mommy calls you? You never came to any of my concerts, recitals, or any thing like that. I know I don't do much but when I do your never there to see it. I wish you were because I try so hard to make you proud of me, but it never seems to work like you can't get too excited or you'll break. You only called me once to see how I was doing and the only reason that happened was because J was in the bathroom. Some times when I think about it I start to cry. It just hurts so much that it feels like my heart is trying to break and spill a river of tears and sobs. I try to be strong like you wa
Earth
In the morning before the earths dawn
I look down to the space beyond
I mourn the loss and yet I rejoice at the gain
Do these feelings come only with pain?
I lose a part of myself and then I take another
Like the eternal fight with my brother
Gain and loss
Loss and gain
Will any of us ever be sane?
Order and chaos
Chaos and order
I make this planet now
I'm not sure how
But this will release the pain
This will be my cane
This is going to be my might
Through the endless battle
Through the forever fight
So that there will never be forever night
Mother
why is it that every thing I do is wrong am I really that stupid to you why is it I get ridiculed for every little mistake I make I may do it over and over again but that's the only way I learn no one has ever really shown me how to do any thing I had to learn one my own and you what to know why I don't help because you either don't want it or I do it wrong so of course the idiot has to be push aside and you feel the need to do it your self. Well you know what I'm tired of it I'm tired of wanting to go somewhere and die every time you don't approve because that is to many times to count. Please don't thing of this as a betrayal its n
Mom
Why do you hate me? Am I allowed to be mad? Will you ever seem to care? Will you ever feel any thing towards me besides anger? Am I allowed to help you with out you getting mad? Do I ever do any thing right? Why do you say I don't care? Has it ever crossed your mind that it is hard for me too most of the time? Am I just one big mistake to you? Am I just one big burden to you? Do you just want me to leave like dad did? I can do that for you, you know. I can just leave and you would never have to see me again. If that's what you want, then that's what you'll get
Love
Your little girl
If I sell art, does that make me a professional? by Merytsetesh, journal
If I sell art, does that make me a professional?
I don't feel like a professional. Some days I don't even feel like an adult!
In other words, I'm giving in to peer pressure and getting an Etsy store! I don't have any listings yet (or even a store name, gotta brainstorm), but expect lots of macrame, pottery, and assorted pagan stuff. So if you have ever seen anything in my gallery that you like, chances are it will be for sale soon.
Current Residence: ummmm...dood Favourite genre of music: heavy metal, alt rock, Black metal, punk...ect Favourite photographer: eh.... no favs Favourite style of art: ummmm........ eclectic (SP?) Operating System: windows (unfortunatly) MP3 player of choice: Ipod never home with out it Shell of choice: *points to beach* that one Wallpaper of choice: I prefere paint in my room Skin of choice: mine Favourite cartoon character: any and all Personal Quote: insanity has many forms ... this is one of them
Favourite Visual Artist
define artist
Favourite Movies
Dark knight
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Dethklok, Rammstein, Hurt, ect.
Favourite Writers
Robert Frost
Favourite Games
Zelda (All of them), FFVII
Favourite Gaming Platform
nintendo
Tools of the Trade
pen, paper, music, and my F***ed up head,
Other Interests
any thing that catches my eye *holdes eye* OW! F***
for those of you that got the blank journal sorry I'm an idiot.
OH Dear Ceres.
its been fraking two years since I've been on here and I have to say looking around at the stuff I post I can honestly say...I suck I think I'll keep it here if for no other reason then setimental value but yeah thats it
I have gotten a job, a car, Graduated from high school, and am going to collage in July all in the span of a month but for me it feels like forEVER!!!!!!
I know that it dosen't seem like a big deal to some people but it is to me so. I did it the additued that I had most of helped I guess the "Gotta Get It Done" thing helped.
Now if I can just stave off the impluse to buy every thing that I want RIGHT NOW. well then I think that I will be alright